2/7/11
I think wants and needs, though two (nearly) entirely separate things, can have some relationship on occasion. I know that "I want those pair of pants" is fundamentally different from "I need those pair of jeans" but I think that, a lot of the time, the two can be the same. My personal list is as follows.- I want/need to stop cursing so much. While I know that I need to, or I should, rather, is important, I have to feel the desire to stop as well. As much as I dislike that trait about myself, I know that if I don't feel completely compelled to stop, it will be almost futile to try.
- I want/need to think that I'm beautiful. This is one I seriously need to work on. I know that I would love nothing more than to wake up every morning, look at myself in the mirror, and say, "Wow, I don't need makeup today because I look incredible," and then just go on my merry way. I would probably also get more sleep if I didn't feel the need to get ready every morning, so that's a plus too. But I also need to think I'm beautiful. I haven't heard it a lot in my life until fairly recently, so it's hard to come to grips with it. But up until then, I felt absolutely terrible about myself. I didn't think I was a worthy friend, I didn't think I would ever be loved for who I was inside because of who I was on the outside. Basically, it's a work in progress.
- I want/need to be loved. This one is fairly obvious for the "I want to be loved" part. I mean, who doesn't want to be loved? But then comes the "need" part. It sounds awfully selfish to say I need to be loved. But really, it's not. Is it wrong to need love in your life? Is it wrong to need to feel appreciated and cared for? I mean, it definitely goes both ways as well, but really, what is a life without any love? It doesn't even matter if it's friendship love, parental love, or romantic love. I'll take it all and love it (see what I did there?).
- I want/need to make lasting friendships. Again, this one is fairly obvious, possibly on both counts too. I know I've never mentioned this, but the place where I'm living right now is so absolutely incredible. I love all the girls that live here and how amazing they've been to me and for me. I want nothing more than to be friends with them for a long time. On the flip side though, I want/need to learn how to get rid of those who bring me down and aren't "good for me."
- I want/need to learn how to say no to people.
- I want/need to create a lasting and incredible relationship with God.
4/15/11
Here's one thing that was in my drafts shelf that I mentioned in my last post. It's almost 2 months later and I'm pretty sure that I'm doing awesome on this list to be completely honest. I am definitely doing well on the first one, the second one is getting close, the third one is absolutely manifesting itself in the people around me (and I couldn't be happier. Seriously), and the fourth is going okay. And for the fifth? Definitely doing that. And I'm loving my life with God in it and all he's doing so far to make sure that I do stay close, as I truly do desire. Maybe I do remember what I was doing two months ago better than I thought. Maybe I'll add more to the list later. Maybe I'll delve more into my newfound relationship with God. All in good time.
