Awesome Day, Period.

So yesterday, Thursday, my mother had some surgery done and then something happened with a friend on Wednesday night that had me down in the dumps (side note: my mother is doing just fine and it's nothing to worry about at all and my friend thing is okay). So, naturally, Thursday wasn't a spectacular day when it comes to defining "good days" but it wasn't anything to write home about. I did lean on the Lord more for both situations and I was glad that He was able to calm me and watch out for me. So I figured Friday may not be so spectacular either since my mom would be coming home from the hospital (meaning I would have to help take care of her, which wouldn't be a barrel of monkeys, but I would do it without complaints) and I still didn't know what to do about my friend.

But oh my goodness, I was proven completely wrong.

So my mom came home, and it was good to have her back. I'm so glad she's okay and she's doing really well considering the fact that she had surgery, so that was super uplifting. It was a routine surgery, but I'm so so so happy that she's doing awesome.

And then a friend texted me and made me smile while I was waiting for my mother and father to come back from the hospital. It was little, but it was a good sign (or something like that) and I was so glad for her and her friendship.

And then one of my friends that I've had for eight years (I told her "that's like forever!") and I were texting today and I got an update of her life. I haven't seen her since winter break 2011, so it was really awesome to hear about her! She's going to South Africa, and doing research, and we told each other that we would have to be friends until we're old and it was superb. I love when that happens, so I was super stoked already.

BUT WAIT, THERE'S MORE! And then, one of my friends that I haven't talked to in probably nine months or something and I talked for an hour, catching up and telling each other how glad we were to be talking and how much we missed each other. It was completely fabulous! Oh my gosh, I loved it so much! It was super easy to get back into the swing of things and have such a natural conversation without worrying about all the little details of each other's lives in the past months and just enjoy talking to each other and well wishing each other for the summer.

How cool is that? I am so blessed with such amazing friends (I love you three [well, four, with my mother] that I was thinking of while writing this post... and all of my other friends too!)and am so happy with my life, not just now because all of this happened, but everything that's been going on since probably around January or so (but for reals, legit joyful around the middle of March). My gosh, I would like to say that it was all me and all that I've done to make my life so amazing. But it wasn't me who texted my friends today. It wasn't me who made the initial phone call to my friend. But in retrospect, I don't really care who contacted who because I truly do think that the Lord saw my need of friendship in my life at this moment and completely caused it. It was so awesome and I'm so thankful. I mean, one friend I could expect to talk to and another didn't really surprise me a whole lot, but the one I haven't talked to in such a long time? That's crazy! And all in one day! I can't even describe how completely happy I am about this!

Maybe I'm attributing this to God in the "wrong" sort of way, but I just feel so blessed overall since I started walking closer to Jesus and I've fallen completely in love with learning about Him and making sure my relationship with Him is developing and with Him in general. I'm pursuing a stronger and more intense relationship with Him, slowly but surely, and He is relentlessly pursuing me and I'm completely seeing this by how He loves me through others. How can I feel okay with letting Him down or sinning or not denying myself when He does stuff like this? My gosh, it's remarkable, how He loves. I'm still struggling with the idea that He's sort of an untouchable God, much like the leaders of my childhood church, but that wall is also being broken down. I'm just in awe of how He loves and of Him and all that He's done and will do. And not because I deserve it or earned it or because He needs me. But because He wants to. He wants me. And I need Him.

I feel like this post was sort of jumbled and that I bounced from one idea to the next but it makes sense to me. And I needed to just express all these great thoughts going through my head and all these great realizations and comprehensions (that may not be a word, but it fits) that have been given to me. And that's good enough for me. :)